A Confused NITian !

My first steps into college with mind full of pride and confidence, heartful of hopes,eyes full of excitement and anxiety,still with a confused soul.Everything seemed to be exciting.New place,new friends,new thoughts…….everything made my eyes open and wonder. Magical thing about these is it didn’t take much time for these to take control of my mind and senses.I lost my senses and dedicated myself to world of illusion. Everything seemed to be made for myself.Nothing is bad and everything is accepted in this frame of reference.Felt like i am the sole dictator of my senses which in contrary not true remained undefeated.Priorities changed.A random sort made my primary essence least prior,overtook by many random thoughts.Even small triggers of consciousness of truth couldn’t change my state. It took pretty much time for me to discharge and change my state.Then came into my life,like an angel(which i thought would be).She drove me into a world of no laws,dimensions.She made me more weaker,deserted my heart in memories of her grace,charm and everlasting cuteness.She made me watch her all the time,reminded me of her presence and persuaded me all the way to her world.She made me more hesitant and weak enough that i couldn’t look into her eyes.She made me dumb enough to obey her,whatever it may be,I couldn’t utter a single word.I strived to impress her in whatever ways i could.I tried n tried but never gave up.Despite all those,I didn’t succeed and remained a looser. My scores began decreasing and grades started laughing at me,I didn’t care much about them. It took a lot time for me to recover and remained as “A CONFUSED NITian”forever